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Dear Mr. C, I got to hate it but you have really secured that special place in my heart. It's not a good thing, though. It is making me struggle so hard with this issue, and how you treat me. No matter how many times I prayed a prayer to fully hand this situation up into my hands, I still can't get over it.

The heartache I experienced from this is far more serious than what I have experienced previously. I don't know why this is happening, maybe I just like you alot. I am even certain that this is not a crush.

When we started talking, I told myself that I would not fall for you no matter how nice you treat me. But I failed terribly, landing myself in such a situation. I would really want to know the reason behind all the things you do, right from the start.

What I want to know MOST, is why you are ignoring me for the second time. I seriously have to say this, YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE. I have never seen anyone like you in my life before. I like you, yes, but I detest and despise you for being such a coward. Silence? Why are you trying to avoid a problem that I don't see?

Why are you being so self-centred? Why is that you're more concerned about yourself? :(

All I want now is just one text from you, and I'll be fineeee. I don't know why but I really miss you so freaking much I can't control myself anymore :( If this is what you think is best for you, then fine I'll let it go.

Well, somehow it's great getting it off my chest. I think now I can really hand this up to God and not try to do anything by my own strength anymore!!! :D